like fable

or mass effect

or anything.

It's all one disappointing mess of bluh.

I'm tired of fandoms.

People are judgmental and evil, and I dislike most of the population, so I have no idea why I thought poking my head out of my turtle shell would be any different if it was in a fandom or with people who have similar likes.

Maybe I'm just stupid I don't know.

But there are still cliques, still bullies, still people who talk about you behind your back, fake people and jerks. People will never change.

So unless I am convinced otherwise, I don't think I'll do any more fan art. I'm not even sure I wanna post any of my art -period- up here. What is the point? It does nothing productive, I don't get paid for it, and maybe three people actually look at/like my art, even though others with less talent have a bazillion people who just cream their panties over one of their mediocre gallery updates.

I don't get it.

Maybe it's because I don't upload enough things?

Maybe I'm not as good as I think I am or some shit.

Why fucking bother?

Maybe people hate me because I speak my mind and actually have opinions that aren't theirs? Maybe they just don't fucking like me and they don't know why. I have no fucking clue. I'm not them.

Well, I don't make bitch journals often, but when I do it's usually bc I'm really depressed for no goddamn reason, or for a specific reason and for the sake of keeping civil with things I refrain from specifically saying what that is. Any of you who know me well get what I am talking about.

Anyway,

yeah,

later.